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♥ Sunday, February 26, 2006♥

All for this entire long lasting month I think I have been crushing on my best friend DJ Fade. But I dont even know, so I asked Rexstar. He asked me where do my feelings lie, and is he single and all that stuff. This is the thing, yesterday he was with his (DJ) his girlfriend and I was feeling jealous and worried. Normally I would not care but yesterday I did. However we are cool with each other. Like we can hang out and think nothing of it, I really think my feelings lie in a brother sister relationship. I haven't told him this yet but, Rexstar told me to pray on it. I dont want to ruin our good friendship. DJ had also once told me that if he was 18 then he would probaly want to go out with me. Flattering as that is that made me even more confused, like how does he feel about me? Rexstar told me that in two years if my feelings change then I will see from there. But for now, what does DJ mean to me. I see him as my brother, we laugh about nothing, we are laid back and jam to music and games. he comes to me for advice, and I do the same. We look out for each other, and we also support each other, we are cool with each other's families. Both our mother's are single but we come form different sides of the tracks, and that's what makes it even cooler. We enjoy each other's company. One time when I told him to call me only on the weekends, he got me through AIM and told me that not talking to me during the weekdays sucks. He also told me he looks sad when I go because he doesn't want the day to end when we are chillin. I can admit to that too. Rexstar was right, to write out my feelings and see where I lie. SO I am actually not lovey dovey over him but in a sibling sort of way, I like that better, it saves from hurting each others feelings. That is alot off my chest. Go figure...


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