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♥ Friday, January 27, 2006♥

Last night I had let it all out. Or most of it...I was even annoying myself. See you was in fear of nothing and you was letting your mind gete filled up with all this junk of you feeling that you are alwyas being alone and that mom is going to beat you. Even if she had threatend you with it before, you are 18 years old. And you do not need to be afraid of your own mother. If she hits you fine. You need to grow a backbone and stand up for yourself. Stop being afraid of her. That is why she is messing with you. Standing up for yourself does not mean being disrespectful, it means to have confiendece in yourslef and staing with your own prioites. Just because you are grounded it does not mean that mom hates you. OK, so she may not be as trusting towards you. However you are blowing things way out of porportion.
Another thing, you do not need to mope around and do stuff to yourself just to feel better because that is major BULL. You are better than that and you know it. You are not missing out on anthing special for not having a relationship, you really are not at all. So if someone wants to say how great thier love life is. Who cares, you just need to be more focused on working with you. You are 18 time to act and live up to that age. You are not going to be bullied anymore. If someone says something to hurt your fellings let them know. DO NOT hold it all inside. Add that to your new years goal, speak up and say what is on your mind in a RESPECTFUL manner. What is bottling up your feelings going to accomplish, nothing except depression. So dont be fazing over somthing that isnt there and be yourself. Hiding it all away isd not got going to help anything. It is just going to make you feel bad and then you end up on medication and a drug addict and have ulcers when you are 20. No need for that thier is seriously no need. You serioulsy need to chill out.


my donut-addict STOPS!