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♥ Saturday, March 12, 2005♥

I was sick but now I am getting better since I am taking medicine. I talked to Kenneth on the phone today, yeah we had a good convo. He really enjoys his driving class, which is cool. While he was bring our convo to a close I was being selfish and dint want him to go but he probaly had stuff that he needed to do. I dont blame him. But am I being selfish because I don't want to share him with any other girl. When he is with his boys I dont care, but that girl that wanted to marry him, It makes me selfish, when ever I hear about her. She must be a nice girl, but Kenneth feels nothing for her and I trust him, thats the most I can do. Am I also a clingy girl? i wasnt with Chris and that was good. I actually know that I am over him because whatevr he does with his girlfriend I dont care, that is there business not mine. I also think that some of the memebers of Remnant tried to push me to make me beg for him not to go, and I am glad I didnt do that. I would have made myslfe a complete fool, and my mom told me that he wasnt worth it, and so did Lucy and so did a movie. That makes me glad. Kenneth is more of a supportive person, with a driven pourpose. He has his confidence and he is strong. I like strong guys both mentally and physically. It makes the relationship stonger, be it maybe love or friendship. I also respect the fact that Kenneth is willing to be my friend before my lover. We laugh at nothing and get serious when it is time to do so. He also makes me want to get closer to God. And that is a real good thing. I predict that if I get better known with God, my life will come off brighter, and I will know a destiny I have to fulfill. Now I am strong with or with out Kenneth, but sometimes when I think about him or when I talk to him, it makes me want to spread love to the world. DC also noticed that I have tons of love, but Chris fractured some of that, selfish prick. Uh oh let me chill out, since he is so 2004. I got 2005 to look to. And wtith this music video I can really bloom with my creativity. If I miss a good session, another one will come. I can feel it. But no dag on cold is going to make me weak and greedy. Yeah, its gonna be the Shiznite!!!


my donut-addict STOPS!