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♥ Saturday, February 12, 2005♥

Dear Blogger,
So damn stressed, yeah I know that I am using a cuss word but it doesn't compare to what I am feeling right now. I got my phone bill, turns out that I owe my sister $20 extra dollars in text messaging. My siblings laughed I was nearly brought to tears. My mother also told me that I owe over $242 in taxes. I almost cried over that. She is pressreing me to go excercise and crap. Some people can understand what I am going through, others cannot. Oh yeah, then my mom had the nereve last night that when I was walked to the car was I kissed on the cheeck. "You can only be friends because I don't want you to go through the emotional stress," HELLO? What am I going through now!?! Ok, sfter she scholded me for my bill she told me not to get all "boo-hoo-ey." Damn, am I not allowed to cry either. So I went to bed cause I didn't wat to see her face. And I still don't want to. I really feel like shit, well maybe not shit but pretty bad. Emotional stress...hmph Like she has control over my emmotions. So if K-man gives me a big big fat valentine tommorow is she gonna flip. I will just have to hide it form her. Just like all the other feelings I cannot come out and shout to her. She is like " I understand, I went through the same thing except my parents never taught me anything like this." So is it gonna be you making my life miserable and depressing, just tomake me work harder. Oh yeah I am really gonna turn into a big time adult with problems in my future. She doesnt care about what I feel...oh well there is nothing that I can do about it, except shield myself and become ignorant to the world. There is nothing I can do, I can just take it one step at a time.


my donut-addict STOPS!