♥ Wednesday, October 07, 2009♥
What do I look like in the eyes of others? Right now a two faced jerk and a baby. I was given some insight on what I want no what I need to do. What I should have been doing a long time ago. Grow up is what they told me, but then I get nursed is what happens. Finally I decided to grow up. Maturity does not happen in an instant, but over time. I am emotional, but look at the people that I see. Several female teachers at my job come from different areas and they hold power. That is the power that I wished for, I thought it was just being mean. However it is not. It is that I want to grow up and at the same time I dont want to.
In my class I was told the greater the risk, the greater the reward. I haven't been taking many risks that I need to move on. I need to stop living in the past. This is my personal insight...
I have to follow it. I wasn't respected in my last relationship, but I it has been nine months, and I am going to change that. When our year comes around I am going to make it into two.
I owe my siblings a huge apology, I was immature on my birthday. My main one goes to my brother...and I respect him so much I treated him insignifigantly (however you spell it) same with my sister, she will act like she don't care but she does.
I owe Tim an apology too, for crying to him for every little thing. He doesn't whine to me about his parents so why should I whine to him. I owe my mother an apology for being a brat, because I was a brat for the past week. I owe an apology to myself for acting so damn foolish when things don't go my way. The world is a cold place but there are people that care about you, and you gotta show them so they can care for you.
my donut-addict STOPS!